He Remained

Where my heart was broken, He held it together.
Where my faith wavered, He stood firm.
Where tears flowed, He comforted.
Where I drifted, He remained.

I've often wondered why, what is the purpose in all this, what am I suppose to do with this?
Then I realized that once again I put my faith in people and they are always going to let me down. I realized that I have been focused on the wrong things and not the One true thing I should be. I realized that I have spent too much time looking side to side, being affected far too much by what others are doing than focusing on Him and focusing on me. I have been too worried about what others think. I have realized that I have placed too much importance on service than the One I am suppose to be serving. I have realized that no matter the cost and no matter the discomfort it is always better to be obedient.
In the strangest ways God has brought me comfort...through people I would have never thought, in a sermon I just happened to catch, in a phone call.
It is so awesome to be loved by Him and know that you are His. He never promises it to be easy. He constantly challenges me to grow, to trust, to be faithful. All these things that I am learning, I could never have if I remained comfortable. One thing I know is that if I am comfortable it won't be for long, at peace, yes- always as long as I am in His will - there is perfect peace. Peace was the first thing God gave me the day I was saved. Heart broken..yes, challenged..yes.
Learning what it is to be a christian, to be like Christ has not been an easy road. Lately I have found myself questioning everything I have ever thought and that has been so discouraging - but only because I have taken my eyes off the only One I should be focused on. Trying to understand people and their actions I will never be able to do. I am just so glad that He never changes, He is the same yesterday, today and forever. Learning to trust God and put Him first, above all and above everyone, has been the best lesson I have learned..that I am still learning..