He Remained

Where my heart was broken, He held it together.
Where my faith wavered, He stood firm.
Where tears flowed, He comforted.
Where I drifted, He remained.

I've often wondered why, what is the purpose in all this, what am I suppose to do with this?
Then I realized that once again I put my faith in people and they are always going to let me down. I realized that I have been focused on the wrong things and not the One true thing I should be. I realized that I have spent too much time looking side to side, being affected far too much by what others are doing than focusing on Him and focusing on me. I have been too worried about what others think. I have realized that I have placed too much importance on service than the One I am suppose to be serving. I have realized that no matter the cost and no matter the discomfort it is always better to be obedient.
In the strangest ways God has brought me comfort...through people I would have never thought, in a sermon I just happened to catch, in a phone call.
It is so awesome to be loved by Him and know that you are His. He never promises it to be easy. He constantly challenges me to grow, to trust, to be faithful. All these things that I am learning, I could never have if I remained comfortable. One thing I know is that if I am comfortable it won't be for long, at peace, yes- always as long as I am in His will - there is perfect peace. Peace was the first thing God gave me the day I was saved. Heart broken..yes, challenged..yes.
Learning what it is to be a christian, to be like Christ has not been an easy road. Lately I have found myself questioning everything I have ever thought and that has been so discouraging - but only because I have taken my eyes off the only One I should be focused on. Trying to understand people and their actions I will never be able to do. I am just so glad that He never changes, He is the same yesterday, today and forever. Learning to trust God and put Him first, above all and above everyone, has been the best lesson I have learned..that I am still learning..

Such a Big Girl

So here's my baby..growing up. She is such a stinker! She will not let me feed her. Every time I go to put a scoop of food in her mouth she closes her lips hard and turns her head, shakes it and looks away. Been doing this for about a day or two. SO, yesterday I am feeding her (or trying too) and she finally grabs the spoon and my hand and starts to try and do it herself. She wants to do it and she eats! So I decided to go out and buy her her own stuff. Such a fun time - truly messy , but look at that face.. she's so proud. I just love her!

Genetics

YES, SHE'S MINE!
My sweet C is always and I mean always getting asked or questioned if she is part of our family. Anytime I am out with the kids minus Jeff, which is just about always. And even in her own home she gets asked. (People think she is the friend visiting! :) ) Anyhow, C is so great, she just takes it in strides. I am usually the one being asked (in front of her) who she is and then after they leave she says
"Mom, they thought I was the friend.." When we are out as a family people think we are a blended family until I tell them that E & C are twins. Which always surprises them. So- thanks to our smart Papa, (or Smart-Alic papa) I think we are going to take on a new strategy... and mess w/ some people a little bit..Like - we say something like:
"well, she's adopted and is just starting to feel like part of the family, so it'd be nice if you didn't remind her..! "

Wouldn't that be funny! Could you imagine the looks on the peoples faces if we said that. It can be a little insensitive to say the things they say to her or me w/in earshot of her. She even wished so bad that Lil'C would have blond hair and blue eyes. The other day she told me she wished she had brown hair. It isn't that BIG of a deal most of the time but this past week she got asked more than a few times.

Soccer

Sweat + dirt + brusies = one AWESOME Soccer Season!
Way to go Guys! :)

" Little Mia "

Soccer is finished!
It was a fun season and ended just in time, only one really hot game. R did so well, she was nicknamed 'little Mia' by some of the parents. So proud of her! This was her first time playing a sport. She has watched and cheered both her brother and sister on in past sports, so this was special for her. She would smile the whole time and was always bouncing. (Little Tigger would have been a fit too :) ) She was one of 2 girls on the team and ALL the boys just flocked to her. She was the center of attention and ate it all up...hmmm hope that is not the future for us :).